Latest development in my meditation practice. I've lately noticed that I've begun to hear my subconscious speaking more often and more clearly. It's actually disconcerting how irrational it is. Pretty much everything it believes to be true is obviously a delusion to my conscious mind, yet when I ask my subconscious why it thinks what ever its thinking is true or right usually the only answer I get is "its just the way it is, why don't you get it" in a kind of annoyed tone. The thing is, now that I'm hearing it more clearly its hard to ignore, in fact it can be rather loud at times. So what's going on? and what can I do about it?
This month I've been doing this mantra almost exclusively and often. I've noticed that after doing a few hours worth of this mantra that I get very tired and have to pee a lot, and sometimes almost feel feverish. Is this normal?
As a sort of reverse experiment I had been doing it regularly for a while, and then decided to focus exclusively on meditation. It's hard to articulate it, but I've noticed a difference. Probably the best way to explain it is it seems like things that had seemed relatively easy, or came easy to me became more difficult, or harder? So needless to say I just picked it up again. :-)